Vidya..

My fav poem spoken by the lips of Vidya Balan in the movie Lage Raha Munna Bhai, this is for all those who share my taste

Guddddddddddmorning Mumbai!
This is Janvi on world's face radio
Jaane se pehle ye hai mera aaj ka khyal
Un sab ke liye jo daude ja rahe hain sheher me

Sheher ki is daud me daud ke karna kya hai
Agar yahi jeena hai to dosto, to fir marna kya hai
Pehli barrish me train late hone ki fikar hai
Bhool gaye, bheegte hue tehelna kya hai

Serial ke kirdaron ka sara haal hai maloom
Par maa ka haal poochne ki fursat kahaan hai
Ab ret pe nange paon tehelte kyon nahi
108 hai channel, par dil behelte kyon nahi

Internet pe duniya se to touch pe hai
Lekin pados me kaun rehta hai jaante tak nahi
Mobile, landline sabki bharmaar hai
Lekin jigdi dost tak pahuce aise taar kahaan hai

Kab doobte hue suraj ko dekha tha, yaad hai
Kab jaana tha shaam ka guzarna kya hai
To dosto sheher ki is daud me daud ke karna kya hai
Agar yahi jeena hai to fir marna kya hai

So gudbye Mumbai, mera bye bye bolne ka waqt aa gaya hai....

Diwali

Its 4:30 am in the morning here at Singapore. The morning sun is still to light up the sky but I believe I have strongly been hit by it already. I haven't really been able to sleep whole night.. waking up in breaks and reminscing about my earlier life and what's been going on lately. I hate myself over a lot of things. A lot of things which I know I shouldn't do but I just can't stop myself, a lot of things which I know I shouldn't say but sadly can't help not saying. And the worst thing is that I have never really cared of what I had been doing wrong until today. Until now, when the thought of losing a very dear one is very strong and the thought that the person whom I love might never be mine for that reason. Is it just too late now?

On this most auspicious day of the Hindu year, I make a pledge to change myself in what I say and what I do. Why am I changing myself for someone else? I don't know. The only thing I know is I had a conversation with Him today and I know this is the right step. I will be completing my part of the promise and the rest is upto Him.

And why am I publicly posting this? For the simple reason, that I want to stand up and take responsibility for whatever I have said and done and for people to remind me if I stray from what I pledged today.

Happy Diwali to each and every one.